Parental Advisory

So I've rather aptly named this Parental Advisory because today's blog may offend a few people and if you choose not to read it I won't be unhappy. I decided to put this on my blog thought because it is something I don't understand, and to some extent fear. It is sexual in nature. So if you decide to stop now that is fine, but if you do read this please feed back with your opinion.


Ok so I have a problem. I get freaked out by human biology, especially biology related to sex, women's vaginas and men's penises. Now this isn't really a problem for me today, because I am not having sex, and don't intend to until I get married, but it may turn into a problem if I don't deal with it now. Here's how I found out that I have this problem.

A few years ago I was working in a bookshop named 'Gospel Direct', and on the day in question nothing was happening. It was a Wednesday evening, and the entire shopping center was empty. I decided it would be a waste of time to do nothing, so I read instead. I picked up a book called 'Sex 101' and thinking that this is a Christain book shop I said to myself "How bad can it be?"

The answer is simple. It wasn't graphic, or anything like that but it was very detailed. The book described sex from a spiritual perspective [very interesting] and later from a biological perspective. I started reading the biology and started feeling a little light headed. As I read about the reaction in the women's body during the climax phase, and the plateau phase, I started to feel as if I may faint.

The guy working with me asked me if I wanted to go home because I looked sick. I said no but decided that I needed to overcome this fear, and continued reading. I read about how the women's muscles tense up in her foot, and how her vagina reacts to stimulation and eventually I needed to sit down for a while. Things were not looking good.

Then I started reading about the man's penis, and nerve endings, and stimulation thereof. I read about chemicals being released into the blood stream and how blood flow is redirected to increase nerve ending sensitivity, and how the man's sense of smell is heightened, and I almost threw up. That was when I knew I had a problem.

Now in case you don't know this, I am a researcher. I love to find out lots of information about things and to then think about it and to come to conclusions about it. This was however becoming more and more of a problem for me with the topic of sex.

A while later I asked my mom [yes my mom, we have a great relationship] to tell me about women's periods, and half way through she asked me if I needed to go to the doctor, because my face had almost no blood in it. I had to lie down for about 20 minutes and I really felt like I was going to faint at any moment.

Ever since then I've been really scared of sex, and all that jazz until a while ago when I decided it was time to get over this silly fear, and the best way to do it was to face it head on.

I hit Wikipedia, and read about the penis, the vagina and sex. I almost threw up when I went onto the vagina page [and the penis page now that I think about it] because there are pictures of the bodily part in question. Not fun.

I spoke to a friend, we'll call him Juan, about this fear and his advice was not very helpful I'm sorry to say. He told me a lot of things I already knew, including the fact that women seldom climax from penetration, and as a result I'm going to have to look at 'it' in the future, and I need to get over this fear.

Juan told me the only way to get over it was to desensitise myself to it by looking at the various parts and eventually I'd get used to it. I don't think it would work, and so I haven't done it.

Here's my question: Do you think that this fear is normal? Do you suffer from it yourself? And if not, do you think there is a way to get over this? And how should I do it?

I said it would be a little sexual in nature, so sorry if after you read this you regret it. I did warn you...