25 Random Facts

So I was tagged in this thing where someone gives 25 facts about themselves, and then you have to do the same or something, so instead of doing in on fb I did it on my blog. Enjoy.

1) I believe I'm one of the smartest people I know because I did an IQ test and the psychologist told me my result was too high to be accurately measured by any testing. As a result I believe I can do anything I want in life.

2) My biggest fear in life is success. I don't know how to deal with it. It feels wrong.

3) My deepest desire is that I'll die. I can't imagine any greater relief than to not have to do anything ever again. Unfortunately I don't believe it works that way.

4) I hate computers and technology because none of it ever works the way it should. That's why I dropped out of IS Engineering.

5) I truly hate children, but I love my cats. I call then 'my boy' and other things parents call their children because I feel like their father or something. Sometimes I walk around at night calling their names because I want to know where they are. I don't want any of them to get hurt.

6) I don't read as much as I wish I did.

7) I've never gotten on with my father. Its not that we fought or anything, there just wasn't ever any connection. In an attempt to get my dad to live up to what my mom thought were his obligations, she used to make us go on monthly 'outings' when I was 10 or so. I hated them because we would do something stupid like go to Kirstenbosch Gardens and walk around for a few hours, not saying a single word to each other.

8) I love my friends more than anything else in the world. Up until the age of 20 I felt alone in the world, but now I feel as if there are people around me who not only have a similar outlook on life, but actually understand me.

9) Romance scares me. I've never known how to deal with it so I run from it. I don't know if I'll ever have a girlfriend because of it.

10) I watch football, trawl the internet and play dota as an escape from my mind.

11) I worry about other people's happiness too much. If any of my friends are sad I literally feel pain in my body, especially if I can't help their situation.

12) I believe in total honesty and don't mind telling anyone anything about my life as long as they are open to not only hearing it but also engaging in conversation.

13) There are three things I believe in when it comes to life: God / YHVH, people and knowledge / philosophy. Everything else is meaningless.

14) I don't believe people ever change; you just see a different side of them.

15) Of the things in life I love, music is the thing I love the most. Music has quite literally kept me alive and I listen to it for about 16 hours a day.

16) Some people have told me that my life is sad, but I don't think it is. Everyone's life is equally sad because it's all relative to your experience of life. I do however feel that I embrace my emotions more than most people do.

17) Other than music, I absolutely love films, theater, philosophy, theology and science. Pretty much anything I can analyise and obsess about.

18) I hate working with my hands. I can't build things, paint things or get my hands dirty in any way.

19) I can't take it when things are disorganised, cluttered or just not neat. It literally gives me anxiety.

20) When I become interested in a topic I pursue it relentlessly until I understand it fully. Once I know what's going on, and usually know most of what there is to know, I discard it and usually never look at it again because I find it boring.

21) The last time I cried was in 2003, because I was tired and couldn't figure out how to remember some elements on the periodic table. While crying I realised that I will survive almost everything I encounter in life, so instead of getting emotional I should just do things. I do often feel pain inside my body though, whether it be because of heartache, nerves or disappointment. I don't think it's healthy but I don't know how to cry.

22) I have a very dry sense of humor, and most people don't understand why I find some things funny. Often people will make a sarcastic remark and I will almost fall over laughing but no one else thinks it's even slightly amusing. I think that's why I find it funny actually...

23) If someone dares me to, or askes me to do something they don't think I will I almost always do it immediately.

24) 'Female' biology makes me feel lightheaded. And I have a mild phobia of vaginas because of it. I think its because I did fairly extensive research into the female repoductive organs and the pictures on Wikipedia didn't help. I do however really want to have sex. That's for sure.

25) I really feel uncomfortable wearing bright or light colours. I can't bring myself to wear white, and I even feel uncomfortable wearing a pale blue shirt I own. I wear mostly black because I feel comfortable in it.