Being Right Versus Being Heard

I love debating. Almost as much as I love being right, but I wouldn't consider myself a competitive person. In the end, the important thing for me is to be right, and if that means being wrong to be right in the end, that's fine.

Example, my mom and I often have debates, and throughout the debate I may say "I see your point" or "fair enough" but that doesn't mean that I concede that I am wrong, it just means that she has some valid points. But often after our debate, I will go back to her and say "I believe that I am right, but I understand where you're coming from", or if I agree with what she is saying I will go to her and say "After consideration, I think you're right."

I am happy to concede being wrong on condition that my new perspective / theory is correct.

This however leads to quite a few problems, mostly because not many things in life are a 'right' or 'wrong' topic. We can debate about anything, and at the end of the day you can have as much evidence and conviction as I do for a specific point of view, and neither of us are wrong or right. Does that mean we shouldn't have an opinion? I'm not sure, but I'd rather have an opinion than just not think about it.

A good friend of mine told me that I am too opinionated, and that I argue too much. I think that he has a point, in that I do tend to argue about pretty much anything, and will often take a controversial stance simple for the sake of debating. Having said that, I don't think that I'm wrong.

In the end, I'd rather people share their view, and irrespective of whether they change their stance or not, I can learn from them. As I've said many times before, honesty is what is most important to me, so I'd rather you called me a cunt and told me what I'm doing wrong, than just sitting there and not saying anything.

If we can sit down, have a fight, and walk away friends then that's perfect. Everyone has their own viewpoint, and I'd rather hear yours and debate without emotion, knowing that you are entitled to your opinion, than get worked up because we don't agree which came first, the chicken or the egg.

Having said that, I'm fully aware of the fact that most people can't do that. They can't separate themselves from their viewpoints and just have a debate, they need to be right. Which makes life tricky for me, because I often offend people.

So what do you think? Should I just shut up and not cause trouble, or should I continue to debate and challenge people on what they believe? Is it wrong of me to have an opinion about almost anything? Where do you get off the bus?

Ok, on another topic, I've been pretty angry with my parents. You see, if someone tells me to do something my immediate reaction is to give them the finger. NEVER tell me to do anything, and NEVER threaten me. My immediate reaction to a threat is to make you do it. A guy tried mugging me and I told him to stab me before I'd give him anything. It's a stupid thing to do, but it was my reaction at the time.

As you can imagine, I didn't take well to being told to go find a job or else. I know I've been really lazy and that I need to get work, but sending me an email was the wrong way to go about doing it. I'm sorry to my parents for overreacting [yes, they read my blog], and I'm sorry to you for putting a crap blog up.

Today I started getting my CV ready, and tomorrow I'll be looking for jobs in random places, as long as it isn't retail I don't mind [retail kills your soul, trust me I've done it before].

I'd also like to thank my awesome friends for being so great, supporting me and being understanding. I couldn't ask for anything better, really I couldn't. For about 2 years I've been praying for good friend, and I truly believe that I've got what I've been asking for.